Ryan: Well hello pretty woman. Jennifer Lopez, by the way.
Ryan: Ellen say hi
Ellen: Hi Jen
Jennifer Lopez. So who’s gonna win?
You probably know more than I do
Ryan: I don’t know yet
You always know! You have the envelope and you’re backstage and you’re peeking!
And then you go like this to me
With the eyes
Ryan: I give you a look
Well you always say to me, ‘Tell me who it is! Tell me who it is!’
And I say, ‘I don’t know yet’
‘Yes you do!’
Well I don’t know now. Right now I don’t
No, we don’t know yet
But I can cast a glare
What’s the glare? Alright I’ll give you a glare
If it’s Caleb, I’ll give you this look
If it’s, what? Why are you laughing at me?
Go ahead, keep going
I want to see how different the Jena look is
I’ll give you this look
I wanted you to give me this look
Something really different
Well those are my two subtle looks
But I mean, look, with both these two, as you know
Jennifer: They’re great
They’re so great
They’re so different
And they’re so different
That’s the thing, I don’t know
You look at them and you think, who’s gonna have a real recording career, who’s gonna have, you know, longevity
And it’s just hard to tell right now. You never know
I always say you’re one hit record away from superstardom
You know what I mean?
Just one record, you know. And what you make of that
It’s the same thing with this experience. It’s what you make of it
It doesn’t matter if you come in 10th or 1st
Even though you have a much better chance if you win to really run with the ball
But you know, they all have a chance to do something now that they’ve been given the opportunity
And they deserve this opportunity
So I was watching the Billboard Awards over the weekend
And you came up on screen and what did I think?
I was skinny?
Ryan: What went through my mind?
How would it go through my mind though?
Wow she’s on that vegan diet, she looks skinny
Yeah. Shoot, I need to start the vegan diet immediately
It’s true. I see Jennifer. Beautiful, that registers
But then the other voice in my head goes, why aren’t you dieting like she’s dieting?
Ryan: Why aren’t you eating like she’s eating?
You don’t need to!
Baby, we all need to
But you have done a vegan 22, or longer plan.
I did the vegan 22 day plan and it was really good and I kept on with it for a few more weeks
And now I’ve incorporated a little bit of fish, here and there
But I got to tell you, I enjoy it. I enjoy eating that way
I never did and I didn’t know how good you could feel when you really put healthy stuff in your body
Because I was so used to just eating the way I grew up, you know what I mean?
And I think that’s what it is
I don’t think it’s so hereditary, like a chemical chemistry thing.
I think it’s hereditary, it’s passed down to you – your habits, it’s a habitual thing
Did you get gassy? Because I did week 2
No! I felt like I had less gas
Oh good. Well, finally!
Lucky for you guys!
As I know, you’re finishing Idol and you’re always thinking about the next thing
So what is the iron in the fire that is immediately after Idol?
Immediately after Idol, I’m going to do a show in the Bronx, a free concert in my hometown
That’s a big deal
It’s such a big deal. It’s so great
And I guess the minute we put the tickets out, they were gone. They were free
But also it just felt really good. You wonder, is anybody gonna show up? I wonder
The tickets are free, it would be really bad if nobody did
But they did and it’s awesome
And we’re gonna have a huge crowd out there at Orchard Beach
You know, I’m gonna give them the best show I can give them
You know what else I was reading about you?
The memoir! I just saw this
Oh yes. It’s not a memoir, let me clear it up. Ok here’s what happened
After I came off tour
Ryan: Tell me
They were like, why don’t you do kinda like a diary of the year you were on tour
Because it was my first world tour, you know, and I had never toured
And everybody was like, wow that seems amazing, you made so many albums and you’ve never really done a world tour
So I started and it was supposed to be kind of a fan book
With a lot of pictures and little anecdotes about being on tour and how I put the show together, blah blah blah
And as I started realizing how I put the show together, and everything that happened on tour
It became a different book
And I was like, oh my god I’m writing a book about, yes that year and those couple of years leading up
The year before the tour and and the year right after the tour. So it was 6 months, the tour, and then 6 months
And everything that happened to me through doing the tour, through examining my music
And saying, oh at this time I did that song and at that time I did that song because of that
And those songs fit together. And this is who I am and this is who I was and, you know
And all of a sudden, I’m having this cathartic journey through my own life
It was like holding a up a mirror to myself, in a way
And everything that I learned during that time
You know, I had just gotten divorced and things like that
So I was on the road with the kids by myself for the first time.
And so it was just this weird thing that happened in the book, you know
And it just became something else
You didn’t mean to? You didn’t mean to have it happen?
Because what I read was an article talking about you facing your fears
Well that’s the thing, there were a lot of things I had to face, you know, going on tour for the first time
Could I do that? Could I do that now with kids?
How was it gonna be to be on my own as a mom and doing this?
And also just performing every night. What was that gonna be like?
How was I gonna hold up? Was my voice gonna hold up? Was I made for that?
I had never done it. There were so many things and it was this learning process
And everything that I learned, and I really did come out a stronger person
That was a very transformative year for me
And the tour, and like I said, examining the tour through my music
And putting the show together made me really realize a lot of things about myself
Like, where had that girl gone? You know, when I was making that record
What happened? And where am I now?
And I just came out this stronger person and I learned a lot of things
And I just thought to myself, you know, if I knew what I know now when I was 20, would I have wanted to know that?
And the answer was yes!
Jennifer: I would have!
And so if I could share that with somebody
Like hey, this took me a long time to get to this place and to learn these things
Do I put this out in this book? It was a struggle
Put out the stories, put out some vulnerabilities about myself
Because, you know, we’re always putting our best foot forward in show business, you know what I mean?
It’s like, I put up my good face, my happy smile and nobody knows what’s going on behind the scenes
But to open that curtain, pull that curtain back and let people into that
And say, well this is actually what I was thinking at that time, was scary
And I really thought, do I want to do this?
Did you realize, just before I let you go
Did you realize when you were out on tour that you do need a significant other or you don’t?
Ryan: Because you say you did it all yourself
I realized that love starts inside you
You gotta love yourself first
And then you can maybe have a good relationship with somebody else
Until then, until you figure out that piece,
And really understand what that means, which I did not, then it can go better for you
And that was a lesson to Ryan
Ryan: Jennifer Lopez, First Love available on iTunes now